After 2 very long hours, I finally have everything settled with school. All that’s left to do is to register online, sweet! Max was exhausted and cranky by the time that we got him, but he was SO good! He’s drinking a bottle and sleeping in my arms, it is unbelievably nice to just sit down.
November 2012
38 posts
Got invited out on wednesday night by one of my friends who I don’t really see too much.. (She’s a little bit of a party girl.) I want to go so bad but there is no way I can ask my parents for that.. Maybe if I pull out of working overnight on Black Friday they would watch him. It’s very frustrating not being able to have my own life, I’m not complaining, it’s just really hard sometimes. The fact that The thought to let Matt watch him for the night has crossed my mind definitely says something, why can’t I just have an awesome baby daddy?!?
Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. WHY DID I THINK WORKING AT AERO WAS A GOOD IDEA AGAIN??
There is this creepy in my class who keeps checking on what me and the two people in my row are doing. Go away.
I miss my baby, I just want to smush his chubby little face with kisses
I keep looking at the clock behind me, when the time is right on my phone in front of me #stupidpeopleproblems
Hey teacher, I got am 80 because of a missing staple and my printer not printing the text dark enough? FUCK YOU.
Can’t shake this stress. So many thing, not enough money, not enough time! I wish I could just relax and be happy with my baby.
On the bright side, thanksgiving is next week which means that I get to stuff my face and make a few extra bucks that night for working Black Friday!
So I get to the SEC office for my placement test and they say it could take up to 3 hours. FUCK THAT. Work is expecting me there by like 10:30. I am in so much trouble.
Counselor was of absolutely no help. Basically said “can’t help you until you take your test, then I’ll just pick all your classes for you” then put on se stupid Elmo shit for the baby.
Gee thanks, your so helpful.
So after that I had to march back into work and tell them that I was going to take this test tomorrow so they would just have to deal and figure it out.. Obviously I said it much nicer and was scared to death but whatevs. I REALLY cannot afford to lose this job, but I also can’t afford to have the same schedule next semester or not be able to do what I need to. So now I’m walking on egg shells at home AND at work. Cool.
I need a babysitter that has her own apartment, or I need my own apartment. Just so that I would be able to call said babysitter and give Jen a break without adding another person to the house.
I am skipping winter break classes, I’ll save a grand and just wait until the spring semester. Hopefully I can do mostly online with like 2 in class classes, which will probably be math and English. We’ll see what’s available after I figure out what classes I should be taking for my “career path.” Ugh.
Woke up thinking today was my placement test so I had to get up early in order to leave early… It’s not until tomorrow and I can’t fall back asleep. Guess I’ll just get ready slowly since I have time to kill, hopefully I can’t avoid getting yelled at this morning…
I have GOT to start working out. It may sound stupid or conceited to say I feel so gross because I am skinnier than some, but I lost any muscle tone that I had. I am a weakling.
I need a nanny. Not to have someone to raise Max, but just someone to watch him when I have no one else.
Hopefully working over night on Black Friday. Chance to make $100 in one night? No complaints here.
Forgot my glasses at home. Am tired as can be. Hello Monday.
Max isn’t actually awake, but he is really restless which is keeping me awake. Tossing and turning and flipping over. I feel bad, I don’t know what’s causing him to not sleep well, but errrr I’d like to sleep too.
Working on a project, trying to get a bunch of shit done, and the weekend is already over. It all sucks big time.
I had to go all the way to the stop and shop in the next town over to can my child support for the week because apparently the bank doesn’t cash western union money orders and the father of my child is a stupid fucking idiot.
In other news, I actually have all of my classes this week. The past three weeks I haven’t had my sociology class bc my professor was on vacation, then it was closed for the hurricane, and then again for the snow storm. I have my placement testing on Friday, so that is exciting. After that I will FINALLY be able to register for spring!!!
My friend Tiffany wants me to stay over one night next weekend, which would be totally awesome, but I’m not too sure it would be okay with Jen, although Max has actually been doing REALLY well sleeping through the night!! Maybe if I asked as an early birthday present.. It’s worth a shot.
-sighs- I can’t believe turkey day is next week.
I am wide awake, but I don’t want to get out of bed yet. Maybe if I close my eyes long enough I can get another half hour of sleep in.. Ready, go!
Legitimately had the worst dream ever, like EVER. I’m still shaking. That’s cool.
